Do Wah Diddy
One of my favorite movies growing up was Stripes. Remember the whole "Do wah diddy diddy dum diddy do" scene? Well, that came to mind during our morning bible study, as Romans 7:15-20 came to the mind of one of our engineers. Both seemed to do a pretty good job of summing up the inner conflict.
The conflict is to think that I can control the things around me, whatever they may be. And the conclusion of Paul (Romans), David (Psalms), and Solomon (Ecclesiastes) is that I cannot. It's an illusion at best, but it also possibly falls into that ubiquitous bucket of unintentional sin that David so often prayed to be cleansed.
"For I do not understand my own actions. For I do not do what I want, but I do the very thing I hate. Now if I do what I do not want, I agree with the law, that it is good. So now it is no longer I who do it, but sin that dwells within me. For I know that nothing good dwells in me, that is, in my flesh. For I have the desire to do what is right, but not the ability to carry it out. For I do not do the good I want, but the evil I do not want is what I keep on doing. Now if I do what I do not want, it is no longer I who do it, but sin that dwells within me." ~ Romans 7:15-20
Just a thought. You might also find yourself well intentioned but then offset by something that seems rather trivial. Perhaps the struggle is real within you as well.